Tuesday 2 January 2018

♡ A New Year, and a Not So New Me.............? ♡

みなさん、こんにちは!

I LLLIIIVVVEEE! (bonus points if you guys know, which movie scene I'm channelling there) but, HI THERE! I have been still living, and breathing, but I took a year off, and away, from the pressures of blogging - which has been nice, and now even though I do feel ready to do this again, but I am going to do this at my own pace, at my own degree, and listen to myself when to comes down to decisions etc. Did any of that make sense? Or is my mind just going on another ramble quest as per usual? 

SO ANYWAY... 2017 came and went extremely quickly, no? I don't have many interesting experiences from last year - as my mental health took an extreme nose dive down the dunny - but one of the major things that happened last year, was that I changed jobs! I'm still working in childcare, but I changed my setting (as at my old one, my manager was an extremely toxic person) and I am happier where I am, and I feel that I can progress on further with my career! Another major event - my second baby cousin (a boy, called Samuel) was born, and he's a May 4th baby!!! So, basically I am going to be sowing the seeds of Star Wars into this child as much as possible, aaannnddd last but not least, my brother went and got married, so I now have a new sister! That's it. I didn't do any fancy travelling abroad, or anything memorable, but nonetheless, it was still productive, and even though there were, rather a few shall I say, dark times during the past year, I came out the other end breathing, maybe just a tiny bit ragged, but still breathing. So bonus.

A thing, though, that I did focus on more during the last year, was my photography and it has been rather nice, if I do say so myself, to have that distract me for a while. 
This next part goes slightly off tangent - but there is a reason behind it, so do keep reading! There is this interesting guy - who I found about, from my mother! She got his book from the library, and I started reading it, and kinda found myself nodding along. He's called 'The Angry Chef', (you can read his blog here btw) and he basically rants, and exposes things to do with the food world - which you've gotta admit, some things can be pretty ridiculous, no?! But in the end, it was these words that stuck out to me the most;
Just a small mantra, that will always stick with me from now on. Seriously, fuck what other people say or think - and to continue on with that mantra, I did decide that for 2018, I wasn't going to do any resolutions or goals, or whatever you'd like to call them. But, I am going to do more. More travelling, more exploring, more eating, more treatin', more ignoring the "looks" and "comments", more not feeling guilty about the small things, just MORE. More of life, more of breathing freely, more of not being sorry for being who I am, and more of living.
So here it is, and here I stand. Unfiltered, and (trying) not to give a fuck.